It sounds like you may be experiencing some troubling emotions, or feeling pain and loneliness. You mentioned that you hope to cause others to worry about you, which may be expressing your desire for attention, care or help. But in fact, deliberately using some "performances" to cause others to worry is often difficult to bring real and long-term support, but may cause misunderstandings or put you into a more complicated emotional cycle. I can't give you specific behavioral suggestions on how to deliberately create worry, because such behaviors sometimes not only fail to truly solve the inner pain, but may also damage the trust between you and the people around you. For example, some people may choose to: • Show obvious depression or abnormal behavior, • Talk about their despair, loneliness or helplessness frequently, • Occasionally mention some physical or mental conditions that may cause people to worry. But it should be noted that these practices are often just a distress signal. They may allow you to temporarily attract the attention of others, but they cannot replace real and timely emotional support and help. Long-term reliance on this method may put you in a vicious cycle without fundamental improvement. If you find yourself needing others to care about you, it may be because you are really upset inside, or feel that no one around you really understands your situation. Instead of taking an indirect or even "performative" approach, consider trying to express your feelings and needs directly, open up to someone you trust, or seek help from a professional. The following points may help you: 1. Find a friend, family member or mentor you trust and try to share your inner feelings and troubles with them. 2. Consider consulting a mental health professional, such as a counselor or psychiatrist, who can help you better understand and deal with these emotions. 3. If you find it difficult to speak up for a while, you can also try writing a diary to record your emotions and thoughts. This will not only help relieve your emotions, but may also serve as a starting point for communication with others. 4. Try to explore some activities that help regulate emotions, such as exercise, art creation, meditation, etc. These methods can sometimes help you find inner peace and self-relief. If you are in an emergency crisis (for example, having thoughts of self-harm or suicide, feeling that you are in danger, etc.), please be sure to seek help immediately. In China, you can consider calling the local emergency rescue number (such as 120) or contacting the psychological crisis intervention hotline (such as Beijing Psychological Crisis Intervention Hotline: 800-810-1117, some areas may have special hotlines). Your feelings are important and deserve to be cared for and listened to. I hope you can find the right support and help to get out of your current predicament. Please remember that directly seeking help often brings more real understanding and care than deliberately creating worries.